Angel of Death or Peace

By Gary Redlinski

How many times must a veteran die before he finds peace? I died this year on Veterans Day.

I died in Vietnam, death was all around me, so many years ago.

A vet friend once asked me why I relive it every year. For him it maybe simple, but I live it every day. I lived and worked with death every day for two years. It was my job.

I died in Nam, I just didn’t know it. People and family said I was different when I came home. I fought my way back ’til I hit my wall.

I died again.

I fought my way back, again.

I hit my wall again, When I realized that suicide kid, with no head, flashed me back to Nam.

I died again.

There were thousands of remains (that’s all they were) that passed through my hands.

I don’t know where their spirits went, but I know their bodies went thru hell.

I died again.

I think of them daily, and I die each time.

My spirit is gone. my body’s still here.

I hope to arise by Memorial Day (which now sounds like a long time from now), in time to die again.

Gary T. Redlinski

US Army, Mortuary Affairs Specialist